Monday, April 29, 2013

Being Still

 For the past couple of months, there has been a lot of processing, thinking, and praising going on - just all inside my head or with Dave. With how fast my brain can process and my mouth can move all at the same time, it seems exhausting for me to slow my brain to the speed of my typing fingers.  All that to say, with this baby coming just shy of 4 months away I need something to hold me in the here and now.  I need to practice the art of relishing the present with FULL joy instead of always looking ahead to the next phase. 

When I was dating, I couldn't wait to be married.  When married, I couldn't wait for kids.  When pregnant, I couldn't wait until I was 12 weeks so I could share it.  When I was 12 weeks I couldn't wait until my belly was showing and now that I’m 21 weeks and have a showing bump, I already can’t wait until I have four munchkins running around…..goodness!  If you’re getting sick of this pattern, so am I.  If blogging again is what it will take for me to slow it down and enjoy this moment right….now….then so be it.  I want to just sit here and smile at the teeny tiny “pitter patter” that I feel on my stomach…the still of the morning that my faithful husband reads the Word while watching the sun come up…the coffee bubbling and brewing.  Not thinking about tomorrow, or even the next hour for that matter.

Lord, please teach me to embrace each moment.  Help me to look ahead into the future with wisdom, but pull me back again to be still.  There is joy in today, and I’m ready to bask in it.  

I just love this man ;)